Everyone gets sick of me

Im so sad.
Im so tired.
Im so annoying.
Im so irritating.
Im so paranoid.
Im so fat and ugly.
Im so mad at myself.

I don't like myself, who will then?
FML.

I feel so alone.

Today is marked as the angriest day ever.
For the 1st time i left house cos i was that pissed.
All i needed was someone to talk to and to comfort me.
Thanks hwee and baby.
The sight of him disgust me. I will forgive but I don't think i will forget today.
I'm both mentally and physically exhausted.

I made myself over occupied cos i have too much in my mind and i want to put them away.

In other words, baby, kiss me

I'm doing good.

Time to get emotional

The sun annoys me, the rain annoys me too.
EVERYTHING/EVERYBODY annoys me.
I get so annoyed by every single thing that happened today.
PMS i guess..

I wish i could do or think of something to help.
Everything i thought of was bull crap.
Everything i did was bull crap.
What can i do to my pathetic life?

NOTHING.
dejected much.

P/s. I wish you had more time to talk to me. I'm feeling down you see. I wished you knew.

I feel so useless :(

Life is made to be unfair no matter who you are.

Baby came! C;
We shared laughters, tickles, smiles, awkward silences and tears.
I love him.

I love the clouds

Today was awesome! I finally smiled, laughed and played like a little kid again.
Cycling at ECP! Now my ass and leg hurt...and i'm exhausted too..
I think i'm getting sick.. feeling cold and my ass really hurts! lol!
I did bring water and apply sunblock(on my face)! (:
Oh man~ i'm really tired now.. good night world!

I can't wait to see baby tmr! :D

Tell me you miss me

I think of you when i tumblr, cos tumblr is full of love love stuff.

I think of you when i watch romance drama, cos it resembles

I think of you when i cook instant noodles.

I think of you when i listen to my shuffle.

I think of you all the time.

I miss hearing you whispering I Love You in my ear.
Can't wait to see you on Tuesday.

What a great day

After my thunder storm yesterday should bring a wonderful sunny day today.
Woke up in the morning, swollen eyes.
Took my phone to text B. Then got up, prepare breakfast.
Sat at the telly,
munching lucky charm(only good thing) and drinking crap juice that induce shitting.
God damn leg had to kick the glass and then i need to clean up the mess.
Sigh, i think there's a tiny cut on my hand cos it hurts.
Wish B was here. It's been 7 days.
Holidays have been so so so boring.
No responds from interviews suck!
I need to work, so that i can be occupied.
Time for lunch!

I know my feelings for you was real, cause it hurt so badly to say those words.
I miss you baby.

Gonna be strong

I've just started the hike.

Thursday

I hate Thursdays.
I hate it cos its always Thursdays that made me cry like mad.
I have no idea why, but i always feel hurt on Thursdays.
Please make today exceptional.
Please wake up from your dreamland now and be here with me.
I miss you, dumb.

Where were you when i needed you

Time is ticking, minds are thinking..

I'm seeing the time pass, so quickly but not quick enough.

I need to see you, i have so much to say to you.

I hope you sense that i need you and you would rush down to see me.

I feel the sharp pain in my heart everytime i know that you wouldn't be here.

I don't want to be gloomy everyday.

I'm running away from you to see if you will follow me.

I really want to be happy, with you, love~.

It really hurts to put on a smile when im not happy at all.

Lucky Charm and soy

I FREAKING FOUND LUCKY CHARM FROM COLD STORAGE AT VIVO!!
BUT ITS FREAKING EXPENSIVE!!
HAHA! I really enjoyed it though.. Love it too!
I would love to share the joy but it doesn't seem to be happening..
For the past few days, i haven't been smiling as i promised myself to, to revert to my crazy self.
On the other side, i improved!
Cos i haven't been crying since i dont know when which is a good thing! :)
I am strong, and i must be!
You can do it alien!

I wonder how i can hold on any longer

It's disappointing. After telling you time and again, there isn't a change to anything.
I'm afraid i can't hold on. I don't want this to end like that, cos still love you.

Life has never been that boring

Wish he was here.

Worried sick

Baby been sick for so many days and im mad worried.

Plus i miss him badly.

Totally no mood.

Holga madness!

jo came to mama house, i asked her to left some film for me to play with her holga!
taha! so she kindly left FOUR! tahah! so we snapped for, and i played with the holga after that and did all the photos above! Had fun seeing yuki camwhore!

Anyhoo, there isn't any lesson today, so i stay home with mummy, cos she on MC. Uber bored!
Woke up quite early to accompany papa to buy breakfast for mummy.. super hearty breakfast i love! :D

Today was awesome!
JO! holga again?

Would you mind?

No particular person

I hate it when money makes a deep cut in any relations.
Well, we are not filthy rich nor are we pathetically poor.
Fuck your thinking! Wake up for filthy mind sucker!