Living in state of fear

I haven't felt like this before. Living in fear, mom's losing trust in me. I'm such a letdown. Hanging in between. I don't wanna lose him and I don't wanna lose my family's trust. I love them all. I don't know what to do, like really. I feel lost whenever I'm not with you. I feel miserable but I won't show. How can I help myself? How can this go on without being in fear. I need to seek help. This sucks and I really hope you will hold me tight and get through this with me baby. Lastly, you are the only man that I fall so deeply into. I love you.

Worst thing in my life just struck

Yes, I just broke the news to my parents. They are reacting like I have a hooligan boyfriend. They wouldn't want to hear me out and tell them how wonderful my love is. He is like no other. He might not be the race they want him to be, but that's what he is and can't they just accept that I love him? I knew this would happen, I felt it coming. But never thought that it would be just a huge hoo haa! Yes, I said that he was my best friend, my good buddy, but then again, things change, feelings changed. I love you all, I respect all of you, that's why I'm breaking the news so soon. Cus I love my lover and I love my family, and this is all the reason why I had to hold back my feelings then. Dad's pissing off, throwing stuffs at me? Yelling that he doesn't wanna hear me? Thanks alot. Mom's talking about disowning? Because of affan being a Malay? Wow.

I have an interesting family. Sucks to be me.

Sweetest drug

On 17 Nov.
He become my special someone.
I become his. It was all so coincidental. I love him, he loves me. Never knew that he was such a sweetie. I love my cheesy boyfee! :> He is at KL enjoying himself now. I feel miserable and lonely here. Can't contact him at all, I wonder what he's doing. I miss him so much I feel lost and insecure. :(

So here's my lovely boy. :>