I don't like my life now

I've got no clue of what you are thinking about already.
I don't hate seeing you, but the moment i see you,
i tend to think alot, alot of nonsense.
And i dislike it. It feels really really miserable.

Smiling widely is a extremely difficult thing to do now.
I'm truely trying very hard to forget, and move on.
Something is holding me back. And i dont know what it is.
I wish i could erase the past, erase what i've done wrong.
And be a better person. Let me knock my head
And lose all bad memories.
F m l