Its all about you, baby

I need love.

For the last time, i love you.

I will be strong, and cross this hurdle :D

Bad

Feeling super unwell.
Went to the doctor, took medicine already still feeling sick.
I should have gone home and sleep instead of coming to grand's.
Renovation downstairs killing me, i so want to sleep..
Oh yea, K accompanied me today, if not i will die out of boredom at the clinic.

B, i dare not tell you that i'm still waiting for you to accept me.
I'm waiting love.

Lamb

The lamb, i still remember the story you told me.
I too had this lamb, but i don't know where it went.
It was soiled, mushy and smelly(to my mum).
I think when we moved house, my mum threw it away.
I miss it like how i miss you.
_______

I realise Mr. G changed, he isn't that lenient anymore,
Now i have to go to school on time already.
I took medicine yesterday night and overslept.
So i was 0.3hr late for school. ):

I guess i'm not turning up for school tmr,
Need to go to the doctor badly.
I shouldn't have run and play badminton just now ):
Now i'm all achy and lethargic.
I found companion to the doctor already C;
Okay~ I'm off! TATA!

I miss baahh bahh big time~

Missing you

Slept till 10.30 today.
Woke up feeling so lethargic for school,
nose running like a dripping water tap, throat sore.
Mrt trip to school wasn't that boring with Iphone.
Nisa waited for me in the pouring rain.
With the tiny umbrella we got drenched,
my shoe like sampan like that, dripping wet.

Auditorium freezing cold.
Had a good laugh with Nisa!
Left school for home with her and shop at PS.(:
Slack at home then off to grands..
Snap afew then bit goodbye~
Happy empty day.

B, i'm texting you cause I know i'm ready,
I'm waiting for you to accept me with an open heart.
I miss you B.

Madness!

Today, Happy Alien day~ :D
Haha~ Got Iphone in the morning at Plaza Sing.
Everything was good~

Went to buy food for Grands and amina.
Then off to Vivo with ahchin, main intentions was to buy haagendaz.
Totally forgotten about it and then we walked aimlessly ard.
Ate durian pancake, mango pancake and mango pomelo sago.
Awesomeness! Wish we can go there together, cos the durian is seriously good!
Went oldchangki for sardine then remembered that we need to get haagendaz..
So, bought a pin of mango passion and belgium choc :D
It was already 6 when i realised. Rushed back home, and got scolding from ah ma..
HAHA! sorry~

Hmmmm, i think im falling sick..
Damn! And ways, good night world!
I miss you B.

Reminiscing

I know your world feels broken apart under stress of what has happened.
And sometimes your heart might feel shattered.
I'm sorry it hurts so much and that you're having to go through this difficult time.
But i also know that broken things can be transformed into beautiful mosaics.
I believe that one day, all the pieces of your world,
All the tenderness of your heart will be restored and rearranged
to welcome me with an open heart.

I've never loved anyone the way that i love you.
I've never known someone that knows me so well
There were so much left to discover...
Never been able to say "I love you"
And have it mean something different everytime.
I've never known someone i could spend hours with and still long for time to share...
Never felt so close to someone in so many ways
And even though i know i won't be able to tell you with words how much you mean to me..
I hope you somehow understand that the love i feel for you is more beautiful more meaningful than words could ever say.

I'm not giving up. Don't give up on me.

Nostalgic

Today was gooooooood~
I finally can put on my smile to make everyone laugh..
No crying for sure, but tired to the max for sure!
Did case studies last night till 2am plus, with only less than half done..
Woke up early today and decided to go school early.
Mr G wasn't on time today.. 5 minutes late. pfff!
I perspired when waiting outside class lo..
Mr P was nice miraculously.. He is so fatherly like.. So nice actually..
He invited me to go to his class while waiting for Mr G.
Shall be nice to him from now~
THE WORST THING WAS, NETWORK WAS DOWN!
And i came to school early cos i wanna continue case study!
sigh.. No feel to draw, so i watch a movie on a super manly horse name Spirit..
Not a bad show.. Super touching.. Haven't finish watching though..
Internet came back on and i started on my case study till break..
double break again..
Eh, i think i abit long winded..

I felt so relieved when anthony's jaw drop when he saw my assignment
He say, eh you sure you did this yourself? who help you?
Bro did help abit thou.. ;p
Met K after school to take toast box..
Home straight after..
and something real funny happened when i boarding the bus..
When i was about to step on the steps of the bus, there was this huge malay guy beside me..
He bang me and i almost fall..I said what the fuck, he turned and look at me..
I said that cos i was almost drenched.. cos of him! I felt bad thou, cos he sat beside me for the whole journey.. LOL!
sorry big guy~ :P

I really very whine-ny today..
LOL!
anyway, im exhausted.
toodles earthlings~♥

Revert!

ET is going to be back.. Don't get irritated by her! :D
Toodles!

별별별

One, two, three. Again, one, two, three.
Im going crazy, stars.

No matter how many times I look at you, I can't see you, oh baby
Because of the tears in my eyes, all because of you
My crying face that is reflecting above the spread letters, oh baby
I promised myself I wouldn't cry again, but I'm crying again

What do I do, I don't know what to do, what to do
This is me, I don't know why I'm going crazy like this
All because of you, really because of you
I can't do anything, I

Love you as much as the stars, stars, stars, stars
I came for you to find you, you're that far shining star
Stars, stars, stars, no matter what I say
I really can't express myself
I'm frustrated now, what should I do now

No matter how many times I count, I can't see the end, oh baby
Because of all the memories that are in my heart, I think of you again
I couldn't say everything I wanted to so I say them to myself, oh baby
I want you back, I want to go back to your side

I'm pleading to you, please, I'm pleading to you
To the sky, my prayer goes to the sky
Cheer me up, cheer me up
Please, where are you now

Stars, stars, stars, stars, talk to me
Is it over? Is that it? Answer me, don't just laugh
Stars, stars, stars, stars, I'm pleading to you
Just for once, my love
Let me fly to your side

Star, star, star, ooh baby, star, star, star, oh

I love you as much as the stars, stars, stars, stars
I came for you to find you, you're that far shining star
Stars, stars, stars, no matter what I say
I really can't express myself
I'm frustrated now, what should I do now

Extraordinary together

Who says you couldn't give me happiness?

I feel happy,

When helping you to dig your ears.

When helping you squeeze black heads.

When cooking spaghetti for you.

When seeing you enjoy what i cook, though you complain.

When eating hotcakes while you have big breakfast.

When lying on bed with you staring at the ceiling.

When you tickle me out of a sudden.

When our eyes meet with awkward silences.

When we communicate with feelings.

When watching Ip man, Taken, Transformer 2, G.I joe,

Hangover, Alice In The Wonderland and Valentine's day.

When i see you playing with potato.

When we gossip.

When you greet me good morning.

When you greet me good night.

When you ask me whether i eaten.

When you ask me what im doing.

When you say you miss me.

When you say you love me.

When i'm with you

And more to list.

I don't doubt you. I doubted myself.

I miss you.

You know i can't smile without you.

Its like a knife pierced through my lungs, but im still alive.
Its harder than i thought. I don't want to be apart.

80 part game, 10 part sleep. 8 miscellaneous, 2 part me.

We were given a chance to start.
You stole my heart, and taught me to steal yours.
You become the sweetest thing in my life.
Telling you love me and you miss me all the time.

As time passes gradually,
Feelings drifted, problems piled.
But somehow i still can find my tiny source of love from you.

Figuring out what can make things better,
but turned out worse than we can ever imagine.
Heart bleeding every night on bed.
How i wish i could seize the days we were back then.

I tell myself,
I need to treasure every moment with you.
Cause you will never know when i will ever lose you.

This boy, i knew so sweet and loving
have turned into another, ain't recognizable anymore.
Feels like a total stranger. I want you back.
I want the love. I want you to love. I want to love you.


p/s:I'm almost alive, and i need you to try and save me.
p/ss: Somebody's broken hearted. Mend it please.
P/sss: I still less than 3 you.

The way i want and want you to want

Baby, you have to know this.

I no longer want to cry in bed every single night without you. Waking up with swollen eyes.
Everytime i want to watch a movie, but you weren't there, i feel like this.
All so empty and alone.
Nothing beats watching a movie with you even if the movie sucks.
I want to hold your hand, in your lead, knowing that i will be safe.
I need your patience, to talk about anything and everything.
I want your arms around me, embracing me, telling me it's okay.
Giving me your kiss even if anyone's around.
Being here even when im not sick, hugging me tightly to sleep.
Taking tonnes of photos with me, being goofy and funny.
Talk to me without being embarrassed or shy. Cause i'm your girl.
Stop smoking. Cause i don't want your life to shorten.
And don't stop your heart from giving me all the love you have.
With all of this, i'm sure.....
And i'll love you with all i have.
This is the love i want and want you to want.
It may be hard to fufill but im sure and i will promise that you will be happier too.
Love me.

need to sleep early!

deh~ been at home for days.. stepped out only to go grand's.. sleeping real late aleady become a habit, that i really really x10000000 times, wanna change.. pretty challenging thou..even now, can't fall asleep so i login from my phone to blog.. sigh.. im a disaster.. alienate myself.. out of the world..

i wanna upload picture of what i cooked for myself ytd but blogger doesn't allow.. and i cannot send mms! wth la~

i'm plainly ranting cos i'm tired.. and its difficult to fall asleep.. hate it ttm.. anyone wants to hug me to sleep? i'll love you~ i think babystitch will do the Job cos babylove is busy sleeping already..

I miss babylove..

Buy me a polaroid

and i'll be C;

Bedtime story pleaseeeeeee

Played with OmniaII for the past few days and i still cannot figure out how to get application for photos, twitter, tumblr and so on.. And im still playing with it.. I wanna get Marketplace and Samsung App Store!

This morning i woke up quite early. Couldn't find anything to do so i played with make up and eye lashes..okay lame whatever.. And i got my eyes so stingy and red.. must be the eyeliner brush i haven wash for days, ewwww.. Never do it again cos it hurts :(

So, i search and search for Samsung stuff until i went MAD! Then i go youtube see see look look, AND GUESS WHAT?! YOUTUBE DOESN'T ALLOW ME TO WATCH MY UPLOADED VIDEO :((((((((((

I am so angry that i'm tired now.. Ending extremely abruptly again.. LOVE BABY!
Oh yes i created THIS using omnia.. see my sweet sweet love for baby!
Miss him badly already.. hope we can go jalan jalan this week if not meet in school next week in a DIFFERENT CLASS :(:( Maybe i will visit our old classmates in programming eh.. Beware of alien invasion in programming class! :D

Im so tired i can't even stand straight.. Good nightie~

Updates

Hey anyone who is still reading this extreme emo blog..
Hah, Yes i'm fine now.. Cause baby came on Thursday :)
And he made me a tiny bit angry but then im still happy~
So, My body isn't on it tip top condition. Stomach isn't as strong as before.
Breaking out a tiny bit on forehead, Urgh :(
Not sleeping early, as you can see.. Its 1+ already..
Shall make next week a healthy one COS SCHOOL IS REOPENING!! :D
Can't wait to play with 5Girls♥, BFFAE♥ and New classmates!!
Too bad baby♥ isn't in my class anymore :(

Sammi Cheng's concert was a BLAST!
I didn't expect it to be that good. I wanna attend more concerts.
SNSD please come to singapore~
What else~ Oh yes, as stated in previous post,
It's our EIGHTH month, no celebrations cos it's on Sunday..
Totally yearn for one though, never had any "celebrations" before.
Lets hope that our very 1st anniversary will be a blast! heh. If he ever read this~
Its late already, shall crash! Good night world♥~

Baby i love you♥ Happy Eighth month~

Love, ME :)

Happy 8th

Happy Birthday ah chin and Happy 8th month bby.
Love you both~

Everyone gets sick of me

Im so sad.
Im so tired.
Im so annoying.
Im so irritating.
Im so paranoid.
Im so fat and ugly.
Im so mad at myself.

I don't like myself, who will then?
FML.